Hudson had his two year physical yesterday, and I received the news that no mama ever wants to hear: "There's something wrong."
My boy has a high level of lead in his blood (it is supposed to be under 4, and his was 18.9...). With levels like that, the research I've done says the potential is there for brain damage, kidney problems, developmental delays, etc. All scary words that I never wanted to think about in the context of my child(ren). And we have no idea how it got that high. And we also have no idea what we need to do from here, except wait. Wait for the blood test to come back early next week. Wait to hear from the health department. Wait to hear where this lead exposure is coming from. Wait to see if we need to make some big changes.
I shouldn't be surprised. We live in a world that is broken. And it was never intended to be this way. But the reality is that there is pain and sickness and death in this life. And there is no hope apart from Jesus.
Hearing this news yesterday shook me, and has caused me to examine my own heart. Do I believe that in ALL things God works for the good of those who love Him and have been called according to His purpose? That even if there winds up to be long-term effects from this lead exposure, that He is good? That He is sovereign and in control of everything in the entire universe, including this particular situation? That He knows all the days ordained for Hudson before one of them even came to be?
Yes. Yes. Yes. And Yes.
So, now I have two choices. I can live in fear. Or I can walk by faith. And I'm choosing faith. Because my God is faithful, and the promises He's made in His Word are true. So whatever happens with all this, may God be glorified.
4 comments:
Bless you for choosing faith. May God hold you, strengthen you and heal Hudson. Many prayers are being said for you and that baby boy.
love this post...hearing your heart...the testimony of His LIVING power and faithfulness. you could never respond with such resolve and peace apart from His Spirit at work in your life--Praise Him.
you know we are on our knees with yall.
I am so sorry to hear that you guys are facing tough times with Hudson. It brings me back to Emma's diagnosis with Nephrotic Syndrome. I join you in your faith that His will shall be done. He healed Emma's body and I will pray that He does the same for little Hudson. We miss you guys down here in Ga and I will keep you all in my prayers!
So encouraged by your faith through such a tough time. God truly is faithful and good and He will see you through this.
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